Like unless I wear a suit and tie or shave one side of my head, the world misses who I really am.
I go to parties and its the men that are hitting on me. I smile and play nice when I say no. But it sometimes becomes taxing to be invisible. To feel invisible. To feel like a part of you is breaking apart before your eyes and floating away and no one even notices.
So a little while ago I started trying to capture that feeling on camera. I took photos of beautiful, femme women breaking apart. Their delicate nature, their strength, their inner beauty, what makes them unique breaking apart and flying out of frame.
But as I talked to these women, these amazing, charismatic women I realized that I was rather narrow-minded. This isn’t a phenomenon that’s unique to we femmes at all.
We all go through it, don’t we? Moments were we feel the world has missed who we are. Where we feel like who we are on the inside is not who is portrayed on the outside.
Moments where we feel invisible.
Like we are fading into the background.
Like smoke, our hearts and minds are evaporating and no one notices.
We are unique, strong, beautiful individuals that have something amazing to offer the world and each day, despite sometimes feeling invisible we go out into the world and fight to be heard.
And as I sat looking over the photographs I had taken, the ones I meant to lament a loss of vision could actually mean so much more.
Alone we crack and fall apart.
But together, we can be strong.
Together it is our insecurities that dissipate.
Our lack of confidence that breaks apart.
Together we are seen for who we are, we are heard for what we have to say, we are who we are meant to be.
We are reborn.
I first met Sai and Helena online. Sai was in search of the perfect Valentine’s Day gift and my website happened to make it’s way onto the radar. We started planning, but life, and the bitter cold winter we had last year had other plans. Things got put off. Until finally on November 7th, I found myself in Crother’s Woods with this amazing couple, while they were tossing leaves and stealing kisses.
I first met Mel & Beth over Skype, their lives a blur of thesis statements and wedding plans, left no time for consultations.
So we met for the first time in the comfort of our own homes, face to face by iPad video cameras.
Even though there was distance, I didn’t feel any of the distance.
I grabbed a cup of coffee and curled up on my coach and we shared stories about each other like we were old friends sitting in eachother’s home.
Mel & Beth weren’t really fancy people. They didn’t like a lot of attention (even though that was kinda inevitable on their wedding day!). They’re laid back. They’re friendly. They’re relaxed. And that was what they wanted their wedding to be like; a giant party. No big to-do. Just friends and family getting together.
They decorated with family photos, fun sayings, oragami storks, and jenga blocks as their guest book so in the future they could play a game that would remind them of the support of their friends and family.
It was a chilly, snowy November day when we met at the George Brown House in Toronto Ontario.
There was a little bit of snow on the ground and a little in the air, but that didn’t stop these two from playing inside and outside the beautiful grounds.
When we last left Michelle and Sonia`s gorgeous Toronto Ontario wedding, they had just had their very first look at each other! Now it was time to relax and have some fun with their wedding party, treasured friends and relatives that were there to share in their day with them…
The wedding party gathered together, ready for the big day…
But they were nothing but smiling faces when that moment came.
I’m incredibly lucky in what I do.
I get to meet fun, enthusiastic, awesome couples and help them celebrate one of the best days of their lives (so far!) together.
I capture the photos of them holding back the tears while they say ‘I do’, laughing hysterically while they trek through a forest in heels (or dress shoes), and slow dancing the night away. I get to be the fly on the wall; an observer of real, amazing people falling in love.
I first met Michelle and Sonia in February at their home in Toronto. We sat around their Kitchen table for a good hour and a half sipping espressos (I had two) and talking about what made them, them.
Other than the extreme caffeine high I got, I got the chance to learn about them.
Sonia is the outgoing, independent, thrill seeker of this duo. She is the one who would invite you to go white water rafting, and even if you were terrified of water, you’d say yes in spite of yourself because she is just too nice to say no too.
Michelle is the… calmer one of the two. She is the friendly, creative spirit who was born to write.
Together they make one of the nicest, most genuine couples I have had the pleasure of meeting. So I was ecstatic when they picked me as their photographer.
Even more so when I found out (closer to the day) that they would be having a masquerade theme at their wedding!
A MASQUERADE THEME!!!!
Below, they prepared for the Masquerade Reception.
…or pick out some of the candy…
I just LOVE the masks they chose!
We managed to get both brides back to back without seeing each other. (It was a feat in itself!)
And slowly they reached backwards and joined hands… waiting for the moment when they’d see each other for the first time…